Hello Everybody

sorry for not blogging for so long, it has been a kinda sad last few weeks, november 18th i lost my job. they told me that they did not want me to come back, which i was devastated because nobody had told me anything and was never written up. but the good thing is i am now a stay at home mom and i get to spend all my time with my kids and husband. me and him have been having some rough times in our relationship but we are working through it all. i am getting my unemployement (well still waiting the hospital has not approved it yet). then i decided it is a good way to try to launch my little business i started and finish school. the only thing is that i really wish they could have just fired me after christmas but i guess thats what happens in life.
i did my last emt clinical for the hospital and now i just have to go ride the ambulance for 2 days. i probably will not be writing a whole lot on here but i will check in as much as possible and update you
hope you all had a great thanksgiving and if i don't talk before christmas hope you have a great christmas

Looking Back 3years ago today

For the ones that know me well, you know that today is the day 3 years ago my dad passed at 11:45pm. My step-sister passed on the 14th 3 years ago. This time of the year i get really sad, but it has gotten better, considering i go to counciling once a week. And i still have nightmares every once in a while of that night. But i have learned that life does go on, and though they are not here, they are still with me and my family in our hearts. Bryer still looks at the sky and says his papa is up there, though he was just a baby when my dad died, he remembers him. Kids see and know things that us adults don't see and know. That is what is so amazing about children. Though my dad was not there for ms K i believe he was watching and was right there with her. I know some people don't believe that kinds of stuff but i do and i am not afraid to say it.
There are days that are going to be hard for everybody, but at the end of the day it will all be okay no matter what. and you might think why is all of this happening to me? everything happens for a reason, god will not put you through something that he knows you will not be able to get through.
I went to Kansas, Oklahoma this weekend to put the flowers on his grave and it saddened me, nobody had been there in a while, wilted flowers. I decorated it up for thanksgiving, making sure it was sure to stand out. I am a big decorater and i know it might sound stupid to decorate a grave for thanksgiving but it really makes me feel like he is having a thanksgiving to. I have not talked to my ex-step mom since november of last year, but it shows she moved on and doesn't want to put flowers on there anymore.

This song below was sung at my dads funeral the day before thanksgiving 3 years ago. so it means alot to me.




I know your life on earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the devil
You were no stranger to the rain
(Chorus)
Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a shoutin'Love for the Father and the Son

Oh, how we cried the day you left us
We gathered 'round your grave to grieve
I wish I could see the angels' faces
When they hear your sweet voice sing
Repeat
(Chorus)
Go to heaven a shoutin'Love for the Father and the Son

They have been found

They were found yesterday afternoon. They got stuck just after shooting a deer and were trying to leave. I guess it was sleeting and snowing. Luckly they let the truck idol all night so they kept warm.
I have not put any pics of the holiday hair bow and new bags i have made because somehow the pics are not on my camera card anymore but i will have that fixed soon hopefully.
thank you for all the prayers of my two friends

Missing

Everybody please pray for my husband's two friends, they went to south dakota for a hunting trip and last night they didn't go home. My friend which is one of there wife, they are staying with her uncle and he called her last night and told her they never came home. so now they have called the sherriff and are searching for them.
Please let them come home safe.

UPDATE: 10:20 am

Still no word from the guys, his wife has tracked todd cell and he hasn't used it in three days. and they are still working on his dad cell. Kami said if they don't hear anything by 12 she is going up there and i think michael is going to. Please god let them be okay, he has three little kids.

Talking Tuesday!

Hope your having a good week so far. I have some new bags and hairbows made up and new hair bow holder and will have the pictures on the site soon, so please check back soon. Remember christmas is coming up and what better of a gift could you give than a personlized bag or hair bows to match all of your fave girls clothes!
Will have pics of saturdays carnival tommarrow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENI ROSE

Today is my niece Serenity Rose 2nd birthday. This little girl is very special, she was healed just over a year ago from a heart condition that kept her in the hospital since the her first week of life. She and kennedy are just 2 months apart. Please visit their sitewww.throughthevalleyofserenity.com.
Also my two other favority nieces birthdays are here to, So happy Birthday Kayleigh and Gracee. We love you guys so much and wish you the best. Tell your daddy since its your day you get to be treated like little princesses that you are.
Love you Burk family
xoxoxo

Everybody have a great weekend, we have a school carnival tommarrow so hopefully everything will go smooth. Bryers little friend Lauren is the carnival princess for the morning pre-k class. Also please pray for her family they just lost her great grandfather to a long battle of dementia and the funeral is today.

Election Day!!

hello, happy election day! i can not wait to find out who is going to win tonights.
well last week was a long week and so i am hoping that this week will be alot better.Poor ms kennedy has been tortured to the fullest. having to go to the doctor everyday and have the infection squeezed out of her leg. But she went to the doctor yesterday and he said she doesn't have to go back unless it gets bad. But the swelling went down and she can walk and run again. It was kinda nice having her just sitting on the couch but i also had to right at her side cause she would call my name every 5 minuates to get her something. she is so spoiled, she got new dora crocs(cause her foot would not fit into anything) and a new baby doll. she felt like it was christmas. poor bryer, he was kinda going through a little jealousy because she was getting all the attention.
well gotta get back to work
make sure to vote!

Worst Week Ever

hey, this week has been a horrible horrible week. Friday night i started passing a kidney stone. I was out all week until today. Tuesday night i had to go to ER because my kidney doc was out of town so the one covering for him said since i was vomiting and nausea. But they did a CT scan tuesday night and it showed i got it passes and also that i have a blockage in my colon AGAIN! and i have a bladder infection.
Then get this yesterday i noticed a black spot on Kennedys calf. well i didn't think anything about it. well she woke up from her nap screaming in pain and would not move her right leg, she would not even walk. Come to find out she got bit by a brown reclus, and i am pretty sure it was a brown reclus cause i killed 3 of them in her room. So we were in the ER again last night. But the nice thing was they got us right in and the doc followed us in. I get kind of scared when it comes to spider bites because a few years back i almost died because of a brown reclus bite, i was hospitlized for a week. My bite was on my neck right next to my juglar vein and trachea, so i shut my breathing off. So hopefully today will be better.

Hey!!!

i havn't had anything to blog about the last couple of days. hopefully soon i will have pics of my cute little niece on here. Tommarrow i go and take my Certified Medical Assistant exam. Please pray for me, it costs $100 to take this test and they only give it 2 times a year. plus if you fail it you still have to pay to take it again. I will be coming out with some seasonal items on Diva Bags and Gifts, so make sure you check in within the next couple of weeks. Remember these bags make great gifts especially for birthday!!
and if you have a certain idea you would like just email me and i can do it

Happy Tuesday!!

I have had a long last couple of days, michael and bryer were sick yesterday and still are today. Then my sister and niece were down this weekend and so it was crazy the last couple days.
I had my first parent teacher confrence yesterday morning, he got an excellant comment. She said he can write his name and anytime she asks him to do something he will always do it. He is also one of the oldest in the class. Which i am so glad that he is doing great cause thats all i need is to be called into the office for him.
Every since his sister was born he has calmed down alot, and almost always if i tell him to do something he will do it.
Make sure to check out my bag and gifts site, i will be adding some seasonal items soon and remember the bags make great gifts.

Question?

hey, today i do not have much to post about cause we really didn't much of anything last night except for trying to clean the house and get laundry done. I do have a question for all of you organized people. I don't have a craft room so all of my stuff is just piled in my room. if you can give me any ideas on how to organize it all i would appreciate it.

I have been thinking....

Last night i got to thinking alot about my life and where it is going. I don't go to church like i should, my son asks me questions all the time and i just don't really know what to say to him. He knows that there is a heaven and that his papa and tommy joe and tells me all the time that they are up their watching. I have also been questioning things to. I have decided that it is the right time to start going and finding out where i belong in life. I guess all this stuff might sound stupid, but i am so young (22 in december) and really i am just lost in this world. I have been having anxiety attacks to the point where i have to be put on oxygen so i can breath better and i have to take different medications. then also getting the tension headaches because i am so stressed the tendons and muscles in my neck tighten up. I really want to find myself and the place i am lost is with god. i really need to find him.
The other night i started thinking about what if i was to die tonight and never wake up. what would happen to me? well i want to know that i will get to go with the rest of my family that has passed on.
This time of the year always gets me down, in 2005 i lost a friend, step-sister and my dad all in one month, right before my nineteenth birthday, then last year on michaels birthday i lost a good friend of mine that we graduated together. I think this time of the year is changing not just the weather but for your souls. so have a great wednesday!!



I wanted to add a peom on here about my friend tommy
god saw that he was getting tired
and the cure was not to be
so he put his arms around him and
whispered come with me
with tearful eyes we watched him suffer
and saw him fade away
although we loved him dearly
we could not make him stay
a golden heart stopped beating
busy little hands to rest
god broke our hearts to prove to us
he only takes the best
its lonesome here without you
we miss you so each day
our lives aren't the same
since you went away
when days are sad and lonely
and everything goes wrong
we seem to hear you whisper
cheer up and carry on
each time we see your picture
you seem to smile and say
don't cry, im in gods keeping
well meet again someday

Wordless Wednesday-Bryer's school field trip to the Pumpin Patch

SITS blogathon

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9/11 Fire truck

This is a fire truck that the man standing in the picture up above did. It has all 343 firefighters that died in 9/11 on it. Soon it will go to park on ground zero.









Isn't it awsome. I collect firefighters stuff so i just thought that was so cool.

Its truck name is Engine 343 for the 343 firefighters that died in 9/11


And then there is Tommy Joe name on the back of it. He never got to go to ground zero so now he is going to get to go.

I had a great weekend, me and michael went to bass pro and bought him new hunting boots and i got a couple of shirts. Then we went and ate at Los Cobos, it was good food plus we got to eat out on the deck. Then the kids were both gone allnight so it was nice to get to sleep in yesterday.

The longest Blog ever!!!!

These are all out of order and only just a few of the 300 i took

The one to my left is at the very beginning when sugarland came out




Above: the first song

The had great light shows
(sorry i was up in the nose bleed sections so the pics are not so great)

This was just a pic i took of the sign going towards the stadium

My tickets



I don't know whos bus was whos so i just started snapping.....im sure jennifer nettles was in one of those.....

isn't she gorgous

i probably should not have taken a picture of my husband after his surgery...but i did...

this was when we first got home....he didn't even remember how we even got home...

my pic of stillwater sign, this was the first time i have ever been there.

me, this is a bad pic of me

Happy Thursday!!

hey,
i have still yet to post my pictures of the sugarland/kelly pickler concert from friday nite and my new ribbons i have been making.
Let me tell ya i have been so busey the past couple of weeks that i can bearly think straight.
1. MY HOUSE IS A HUGE MESS(thankfully my sweet husband did pick the living room up and start the dishwasher)
2.The laundry is piled up in each room of the house.
3.I have ribbon and bag stuff all over my dinning room table.
4.I really need to study for my EMT AND MY CERTIFIED MEDICAL ASSISTANT EXAM IN 2 WEEKS
I don't know when i will ever catch up. Luckily though i will be off on thursday nite starting next thursday for a couple of weeks.

I did not get to tell you about my really bad day on saturday.
Besides getting home at 2 not going to bed till almost 4 i did not get any sleep. Well i had to wake up with the baby so my husband could get his rest since he ended up having 6 teeth pulled yes i said 6 teeth all at once.
Well i ended up just having a bad day and i thought about my dad alot.
The craziest thing was that my daughter found a pic of me and him on my wedding day and she carried it around everywhere, i mean everywhere.
I think kids know stuff, and they know how you are feeling.

Well last nite we went to my father-in-laws and they cooked my husband beef stew for his birthday and made him a cake. They bought him a new hunting jacket which is cool because me and the kids are buying him new hunting boots, which we are taking him to pick out saturday at bass pro because he insists on choosing his own boots because they are his feet.
Men!!!

I am just so glad the week is almost over, i have so much to do. This morning i took a load of stuff for the garage sale me and my mom are having starting today..I also started making hair bow holders so i am hoping to have them finished.
Have a great day!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL!!!!

Today is my husbands 24th b-day. But we are not doing anything till sunday.
I do have lots of pictures of friday nite but my mom has my camera, so it will be a few days before i will have them posted.
Sugarland was awsome though, best show i have ever been to.
I also have a new product on Diva Bags,
hair bows, different sizes and different colors. They will be posted this afternoon hopefully.

ORANGE PEEL 2008

Today is the day!!! I get to go to Stillwater for Orange Peel to see my fave band Sugar Land and my moms fave Kelly Pickler tonight. I will try to take lots of pictures.
Poor Michael has to have 5 teeth pulled today at 12pm. His dad is going to babysit him while im going to be gone. So pray for him, he has not had any sleep for the last week his mouth has just been throbbing and he is on the 3rd antibiotic and the pain meds are just not cutting it.
Well sorry my life has been boring the last week, nothing really to talk about. I have taken another job working after hours thursday nights, just something else to add to my list. But with christmas coming and two birthdays after christmas, i really need that extra money.

Also i got good news, a doctors office opening for a nurse, i will be going to interview for in a few days. I am really hoping i get it, i am tired of going from office to office floating.
Have a Great Weekend!!!!

Congraulations Manning Scott Family

The Manning Scott family finally got there prayers answered, little manning finally got his new heart saturday at the Childrens Hospital in St. Louis. If you would like to read about the story go to www.examiner-enterprise.com
I am praying for his full recovery.

I got an A..

Last night we had our first major test and yes i got a 100%, thats right 100%
I told Michael i am a airway expert....
You the thing i hate about going to school at night i don't get to see the kids and i end up staying up till 12 or 1 doing really nothing.
Happy Wednesday!!!!!

Hey Guys!!!!

hello and happy monday!

I have started a new hobby (suprise suprise)

These cute things i am making to help with

the Tommy Fields Firefighter Memorial Statue,

if you have read in any of posts before

he was my husbands best friend that died

of colon cancer in may. We were supposed to have a street

dance a few weeks ago, but because of the hurricane it got

rained out and it will go on next spring. Hopefully today i will

have a blog just for these, so stay tuned to get all the details






We had a great weekend, except for Ms Kennedy

was very sick, with some kind of virus

Thes two just adore each other

Sweet Brother...


I don't think i mentioned about what happened thursday when i stayed home with them because bryer was sick.

This little girl might look like a angel but she isn't

I asked her if she wanted to go hang the laundry out to dry with and she said no she wanted to stayinside with brother

i came back in about 5 minuates later and she

had decided to take her diper off and poop and pee in the floor.

I didn't know what to do, should i get on to her or what.

Tuesday....

I know it is tuesday and a day late, i just would like to say read my charming kids blog, it is a great site and now she has come up with "not me monday".
she has alot of great stuff to read so make sure you check it out.http://www.mycharmingkids.com
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Anyways, Kennedy was sick all weekend. The doctor said there was nothing wrong with her but she ran 102.4 or higher all weekend. She is feeling better today, she actually was not up all night running a fever.
And all i did was work this weekend at the after hours clinic. So i am pretty tired
have a great day!!

SITS

I am posting today about something alittle different. If you look to the right you will see my new button. The Secret is in the Sauce. I am trying to win a prize. so make sure you go and check out their blog, it has really neat stuff. www.thesecretisinthesauce.blogspot.com

My Baby Boy

Well he is not such a baby now. We spiked his hair this morning.

I told him that he had to shave the mohawk once school started but i decided to let him keep it, he gets so many compliments.

Isn't he adorable.

Too Short of a Weekend

This weekend was so short, it seemed like i did
not get anything done. My goal this weekend
was to go through closets and bedrooms to organize,
but only one room got done. Which it should have been my room
but i guess that will take awhile. You can hardly even walk in that
room, there is a path to the bathroom and back to the bed.
I still have yet to put stuff up from the move and i have just stored it in
my bedroom.
Well friday night i had to work the after hours clinic (which is just a walk in clinic). We had several children come through there but one just really caught my eye. He was 4 years old and just talked like there was no tommarrow.
here was our conversation
me: is he on any medications?
grandfather: no
me: is he allergic to anything
grandfather: no not that we know of
little boy: yeah, yeah i am allergic to something
grandfather: and what is that
little boy: peas!
grandfather: oh really
little boy: yup can't eat peas
that was the funnist thing i have heard in a while from a child.

Too Short of a Weekend

Too Short of a Weekend

Pictures of the last week.....

These are just a few of the pictures of our life the last week.

Tuesday night i got to do a life flight landing class with

Collinsville Fire Department. It was really neat, they brought

us out the new bird. I don't have any pictures because i did

not know we were going to be able to take pictures. But i do have a new

career in mind...a flight nurse....so we will see what happens.

I am going to do there third rider program starting next month.

Like i need some more stuff to add to my agenda.

This is Lauren, she is Bryers best friend, they have been

other since they were about 4 or 5 months old. Her mother babysits

the kids. They were on the same ball team this summer and can you

believe it they are also in the same Pre-K class(with alittle help of

their mothers). These two are like brother and sister, they are three weeks apart.

And you know their little sisters are three months apart.