For the ones that know me well, you know that today is the day 3 years ago my dad passed at 11:45pm. My step-sister passed on the 14th 3 years ago. This time of the year i get really sad, but it has gotten better, considering i go to counciling once a week. And i still have nightmares every once in a while of that night. But i have learned that life does go on, and though they are not here, they are still with me and my family in our hearts. Bryer still looks at the sky and says his papa is up there, though he was just a baby when my dad died, he remembers him. Kids see and know things that us adults don't see and know. That is what is so amazing about children. Though my dad was not there for ms K i believe he was watching and was right there with her. I know some people don't believe that kinds of stuff but i do and i am not afraid to say it.
There are days that are going to be hard for everybody, but at the end of the day it will all be okay no matter what. and you might think why is all of this happening to me? everything happens for a reason, god will not put you through something that he knows you will not be able to get through.
I went to Kansas, Oklahoma this weekend to put the flowers on his grave and it saddened me, nobody had been there in a while, wilted flowers. I decorated it up for thanksgiving, making sure it was sure to stand out. I am a big decorater and i know it might sound stupid to decorate a grave for thanksgiving but it really makes me feel like he is having a thanksgiving to. I have not talked to my ex-step mom since november of last year, but it shows she moved on and doesn't want to put flowers on there anymore.
This song below was sung at my dads funeral the day before thanksgiving 3 years ago. so it means alot to me.
I know your life on earth was troubled
And only you could know the pain
You weren't afraid to face the devil
You were no stranger to the rain
(Chorus)
Go rest high on that mountain
Son, your work on earth is done
Go to heaven a shoutin'Love for the Father and the Son
Oh, how we cried the day you left us
We gathered 'round your grave to grieve
I wish I could see the angels' faces
When they hear your sweet voice sing
Repeat
(Chorus)
Go to heaven a shoutin'Love for the Father and the Son
Park City Utah
2 years ago
2 comments:
Tessa,
I pray your doing well and not allowing depression to burden you down. Never forget that no matter where you are or what this world brings you, you are always loved,
"For I am persuaded, that neither death nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39
You are loved by your Savior, your family, by us!! Those around you are very blessed to have you!
Love, Dana
Haven't heard from you in awhile, hope all is still going well!
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