Worst Week Ever

hey, this week has been a horrible horrible week. Friday night i started passing a kidney stone. I was out all week until today. Tuesday night i had to go to ER because my kidney doc was out of town so the one covering for him said since i was vomiting and nausea. But they did a CT scan tuesday night and it showed i got it passes and also that i have a blockage in my colon AGAIN! and i have a bladder infection.
Then get this yesterday i noticed a black spot on Kennedys calf. well i didn't think anything about it. well she woke up from her nap screaming in pain and would not move her right leg, she would not even walk. Come to find out she got bit by a brown reclus, and i am pretty sure it was a brown reclus cause i killed 3 of them in her room. So we were in the ER again last night. But the nice thing was they got us right in and the doc followed us in. I get kind of scared when it comes to spider bites because a few years back i almost died because of a brown reclus bite, i was hospitlized for a week. My bite was on my neck right next to my juglar vein and trachea, so i shut my breathing off. So hopefully today will be better.

Hey!!!

i havn't had anything to blog about the last couple of days. hopefully soon i will have pics of my cute little niece on here. Tommarrow i go and take my Certified Medical Assistant exam. Please pray for me, it costs $100 to take this test and they only give it 2 times a year. plus if you fail it you still have to pay to take it again. I will be coming out with some seasonal items on Diva Bags and Gifts, so make sure you check in within the next couple of weeks. Remember these bags make great gifts especially for birthday!!
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Happy Tuesday!!

I have had a long last couple of days, michael and bryer were sick yesterday and still are today. Then my sister and niece were down this weekend and so it was crazy the last couple days.
I had my first parent teacher confrence yesterday morning, he got an excellant comment. She said he can write his name and anytime she asks him to do something he will always do it. He is also one of the oldest in the class. Which i am so glad that he is doing great cause thats all i need is to be called into the office for him.
Every since his sister was born he has calmed down alot, and almost always if i tell him to do something he will do it.
Make sure to check out my bag and gifts site, i will be adding some seasonal items soon and remember the bags make great gifts.

Question?

hey, today i do not have much to post about cause we really didn't much of anything last night except for trying to clean the house and get laundry done. I do have a question for all of you organized people. I don't have a craft room so all of my stuff is just piled in my room. if you can give me any ideas on how to organize it all i would appreciate it.

I have been thinking....

Last night i got to thinking alot about my life and where it is going. I don't go to church like i should, my son asks me questions all the time and i just don't really know what to say to him. He knows that there is a heaven and that his papa and tommy joe and tells me all the time that they are up their watching. I have also been questioning things to. I have decided that it is the right time to start going and finding out where i belong in life. I guess all this stuff might sound stupid, but i am so young (22 in december) and really i am just lost in this world. I have been having anxiety attacks to the point where i have to be put on oxygen so i can breath better and i have to take different medications. then also getting the tension headaches because i am so stressed the tendons and muscles in my neck tighten up. I really want to find myself and the place i am lost is with god. i really need to find him.
The other night i started thinking about what if i was to die tonight and never wake up. what would happen to me? well i want to know that i will get to go with the rest of my family that has passed on.
This time of the year always gets me down, in 2005 i lost a friend, step-sister and my dad all in one month, right before my nineteenth birthday, then last year on michaels birthday i lost a good friend of mine that we graduated together. I think this time of the year is changing not just the weather but for your souls. so have a great wednesday!!



I wanted to add a peom on here about my friend tommy
god saw that he was getting tired
and the cure was not to be
so he put his arms around him and
whispered come with me
with tearful eyes we watched him suffer
and saw him fade away
although we loved him dearly
we could not make him stay
a golden heart stopped beating
busy little hands to rest
god broke our hearts to prove to us
he only takes the best
its lonesome here without you
we miss you so each day
our lives aren't the same
since you went away
when days are sad and lonely
and everything goes wrong
we seem to hear you whisper
cheer up and carry on
each time we see your picture
you seem to smile and say
don't cry, im in gods keeping
well meet again someday

Wordless Wednesday-Bryer's school field trip to the Pumpin Patch

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