hey, today i do not have much to post about cause we really didn't much of anything last night except for trying to clean the house and get laundry done. I do have a question for all of you organized people. I don't have a craft room so all of my stuff is just piled in my room. if you can give me any ideas on how to organize it all i would appreciate it.
Last night i got to thinking alot about my life and where it is going. I don't go to church like i should, my son asks me questions all the time and i just don't really know what to say to him. He knows that there is a heaven and that his papa and tommy joe and tells me all the time that they are up their watching. I have also been questioning things to. I have decided that it is the right time to start going and finding out where i belong in life. I guess all this stuff might sound stupid, but i am so young (22 in december) and really i am just lost in this world. I have been having anxiety attacks to the point where i have to be put on oxygen so i can breath better and i have to take different medications. then also getting the tension headaches because i am so stressed the tendons and muscles in my neck tighten up. I really want to find myself and the place i am lost is with god. i really need to find him.
The other night i started thinking about what if i was to die tonight and never wake up. what would happen to me? well i want to know that i will get to go with the rest of my family that has passed on.
This time of the year always gets me down, in 2005 i lost a friend, step-sister and my dad all in one month, right before my nineteenth birthday, then last year on michaels birthday i lost a good friend of mine that we graduated together. I think this time of the year is changing not just the weather but for your souls. so have a great wednesday!!
I wanted to add a peom on here about my friend tommy
god saw that he was getting tired
and the cure was not to be
so he put his arms around him and
whispered come with me
with tearful eyes we watched him suffer
and saw him fade away
although we loved him dearly
we could not make him stay
a golden heart stopped beating
busy little hands to rest
god broke our hearts to prove to us
he only takes the best
its lonesome here without you
we miss you so each day
our lives aren't the same
since you went away
when days are sad and lonely
and everything goes wrong
we seem to hear you whisper
cheer up and carry on
each time we see your picture
you seem to smile and say
don't cry, im in gods keeping
well meet again someday
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This is a fire truck that the man standing in the picture up above did. It has all 343 firefighters that died in 9/11 on it. Soon it will go to park on ground zero.
Isn't it awsome. I collect firefighters stuff so i just thought that was so cool.
Its truck name is Engine 343 for the 343 firefighters that died in 9/11
And then there is Tommy Joe name on the back of it. He never got to go to ground zero so now he is going to get to go.
These are all out of order and only just a few of the 300 i took
The one to my left is at the very beginning when sugarland came out
Above: the first song
The had great light shows
(sorry i was up in the nose bleed sections so the pics are not so great)
This was just a pic i took of the sign going towards the stadium
My tickets
I don't know whos bus was whos so i just started snapping.....im sure jennifer nettles was in one of those.....
isn't she gorgous
i probably should not have taken a picture of my husband after his surgery...but i did...
my pic of stillwater sign, this was the first time i have ever been there. 
me, this is a bad pic of mehey,
i have still yet to post my pictures of the sugarland/kelly pickler concert from friday nite and my new ribbons i have been making.
Let me tell ya i have been so busey the past couple of weeks that i can bearly think straight.
1. MY HOUSE IS A HUGE MESS(thankfully my sweet husband did pick the living room up and start the dishwasher)
2.The laundry is piled up in each room of the house.
3.I have ribbon and bag stuff all over my dinning room table.
4.I really need to study for my EMT AND MY CERTIFIED MEDICAL ASSISTANT EXAM IN 2 WEEKS
I don't know when i will ever catch up. Luckily though i will be off on thursday nite starting next thursday for a couple of weeks.
I did not get to tell you about my really bad day on saturday.
Besides getting home at 2 not going to bed till almost 4 i did not get any sleep. Well i had to wake up with the baby so my husband could get his rest since he ended up having 6 teeth pulled yes i said 6 teeth all at once.
Well i ended up just having a bad day and i thought about my dad alot.
The craziest thing was that my daughter found a pic of me and him on my wedding day and she carried it around everywhere, i mean everywhere.
I think kids know stuff, and they know how you are feeling.
Well last nite we went to my father-in-laws and they cooked my husband beef stew for his birthday and made him a cake. They bought him a new hunting jacket which is cool because me and the kids are buying him new hunting boots, which we are taking him to pick out saturday at bass pro because he insists on choosing his own boots because they are his feet.
Men!!!
I am just so glad the week is almost over, i have so much to do. This morning i took a load of stuff for the garage sale me and my mom are having starting today..I also started making hair bow holders so i am hoping to have them finished.
Have a great day!!!!
